and so it begins...

tonight i was looking for some peace of mind but i couldn't bring myself to actually write in my journal (maybe because it is 5 in the morning?) instead i chose to read some past entries and one in particular struck me as very relevant to my current situation and it also inspired a theme for my blog (oh yea!) :

"God has his own profound purpose in our afflictions, but he never takes away our joy. Earthly joy: possessions, prestige, outward success, good reputation, wealth, vanity. When we yield to the working of his spirit...our difficulties will not overwhelm us. Things i can rejoice about (always, no matter any circumstance): life, family, friends, love. I cant think of anything more joyful than life itself... life encompasses all things the fact that i am even alive outweighs any circumstance, ALWAYS... and on top of that... I am going to live forever, that is more amazing than i can even measure, imagine, or experience "

so, it reads better in my journal because i tend to list things and use lots of arrows and what not, but re-reading this was definitely good for the soul. lately, i have been preoccupied with anxious and depressing feelings related to earthly joys ... my lack of money and feelings of complete failure... but God has humbly reminded me (once again) that my focus is off

only through the power and guidance from God can I do (or have) anything... this is His story after all

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